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navynuc 60, Male, Illinois, USA - 40 entries

Aug 2011
8:23 PM

Day 2 juicing -130 kg... The valliant effort continues.

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motherloverfriend 51, Female, Nevada, USA - 2 entries

Aug 2011
3:09 AM

my reflection

After spending a lifetime doing everything possible to make myself beautiful my idea of beauty has changed. I'm 37, and I enjoyed the attention and fun that came along�with being pretty when I was younger. Then one day I didn't. It no longer seemed�important..The problem with wasting a good portion of your life on being beautiful on the outside and not beautiful on the inside is that suddenly you realize that you're empty. Without investing in your spirit and tending to�matters of the heart & mind,�at the end of the day nothing means anything. You have a man that doesn't know you, because your relationship was visual. All your friendships are very surface, and without depth. Ultimately, all the energy you invested equals zip, and you look in the mirror and you see ugliness anyway. So, it was all for nought. I wasn't even a super model type. I was a pretty girl with low self esteem that could never look good enough.�I was never a "mean girl" but I was an empty girl. A lonely girl. Then an empty and lonely woman. For what? What a complete waste of time and energy. I was cute, and would've had so much more fun, enjoyed life more, had more beautiful relationships and over all been more fulfilled had I not let my low self esteem control me. The low self esteem that was carefully hidden behind a mask of self confidence. I can't count the times I was told that I was "so self confident" or "if I was more confident�like you".�
�Now, �I am learning to feel sexy in my own skin because I'm happier, and my happiness is drawn from the kindness I show, the friend that I am, the way that�I love, and my ability to�give. I don't think my eyes look plain without fake eyelashes.�I've begun to refinish and repurpose furniture. My hands gets paint on them and I don't worry if they are not perfectly manicured. I am more concerned with being creative. It is kind of ironic now that I often look�to find the�most beat up�piece of furniture in the thrift shop. Or put out on a curb. A piece of furniture that somoone no longer loves because it is considered ugly. That is the piece that catches my eye. I look at it and say, "I think you're beautiful. I will love you."�I consider the tree�that�used to be and no longer is to �to build that piece of�furniture. It makes me want it not to be wasted. I want to make it�"feel good" and pretty again. Kinda�sounds funny admiting it.�But, my ideas have changed, and so has where I see beauty.

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shhhhhh 48, Female, Philippines - 8 entries

Aug 2011
10:12 AM PST

post scriptum

PS: � you know why i love to watch you sleeping? coz it makes me wonder if i ever cross your mind / dreams. also, gives me time to stare at the face of someone dear to me.

sabi ng kanta:
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�"I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure"

PPS:

i love you

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1 comment(s) - 03:38 AM - 08/29/2011

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navynuc 60, Male, Illinois, USA - 40 entries

Aug 2011
8:29 PM

Juicing day 1

Day 1 juicing - 132 kg.... Missing food. Juicing is quite a bit of work!

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navynuc 60, Male, Illinois, USA - 40 entries

Jul 2011
4:14 PM

Final Supper

Last day before my Juice Fast. 2" Ribeye and 2009 Four Vines Heritic for dinner tonight...

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charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

Jul 2011
10:23 AM

ici

666 self evident the time clock has been CHANGEd to Central USA the man who did it has the mark of the beast he makes the 64 thousand a year it is a grant money thing because he is somebody he told me the time zone is the twilight zone was in Mcdonalds waiting for my next coffee session will be delayed eye need the 85 p but was only given 54 p for Jacks has a Senior COffee the man in a hurry well aernt you going inn there you better hurry inn there you only got 20 minutes as iff afraid eye might use the money for something else OH PLEASE mister you just told me JACKS is open 24 hours eye might need to be a coffee customer in the middle of my night the man who laughed at me telling me to get a JOB he was quite the cutt upp cardd he got way too much excitement he was limping himmself off the bus what did eye say to himm that was so funn and then the man who opened upp his wallet to help me finding none SORRY all eye got is plastic JESUS oh my god eye was carefull to thank all of them thank you for looking in there anyway so now eye got the 54 p from 85 p is only 31 cents needed for my coffee session MCD is such a nicer place to sit

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charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

Jul 2011
10:06 AM

ici

winter haven san antonio

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charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

Jul 2011
2:21 PM

ici

FacebookFriend FacebookFriend You left even before eye got to knoe you it is nothing personal eye think you did not like my poems or my other friends but you left my halitosis is acute you missed a lifetime left that we all face book the missing pages with your remaining friends will not be poets like eye am missing the getting to knoe you now eye will be sad until eye add some more friends it is not easy with the stupid rules that facebook has got to lighten upp let people try to get more friends why is 5000 friends allowed when most people count them on there hands the whole social so called utility is a joke when the nano bots fall off of the cell phone connections it still takes them about 15 minutes to get back on the connections we need more friends on facebook you should send me a message telling me why you left me iff you did not block me eye would really like to knoe the number changes on my friends list this is really all eye knoe it would only be polite to let me knoe YES CHARLES it was ME eye LEFT YOU so you can STOP LOOKING threw YOUR LIST of 95 for the one you cant remember who it was that left you now eye even asked someone just now on a thread she did not get back to me yet you can come back to me as friend iff you did not block me yet or goodbye oh my goodbye eye do not like to lose any friends on facebook

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SimplyMe 29, Female, Georgia, USA - 5 entries

Jul 2011
10:00 PM CDT

Rapid Life

Today I am more in touch with the poetic side of me. Writing and all is what I love to do, it's who I am.� There is no greater feeling right now, than the feeling I get when someone likes my poetry.

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cadorine 50, Female, New York, USA - 5 entries

Jul 2011
5:13 AM CDT

Looking for a way out of the Rut

I'm going to get over this hump no matter what. I'm going to find a way to get tougher, stronger and thinner, even if it kills me. This morning, after a whole night of worrying about it, I got up at 5:15 and tackled a 5K. My time left something to be desired -- a measely 10:40, but I did it and proved to myself that I could do it. It was even a new route. I broke out of my old pattern of running around Lakeshore Drive and headed out onto 22 and Wilmont Road. I promise myself that I'm going to tackle this route again -- maybe tomorrow?

It has been two weeks since I started training with Paul. I've given up Dr. Alejandro's clean diet and have moved onto Run Like a Mother. Just hope I can find my groove, break 135, and find some balance.

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